Fresh start

The weekend did not go so well. after my hen do at TGIs on Friday (yummy food, yummier cocktails!) then a busy Saturday/Sunday where we hadn't planned and so did not eat well, I am not looking forward to WI on Weds, and generally was feeling down and despondent about my weight this morning.

But I popped on the WWers NCU forum, and you know what I am feeling much more positive and happy.

After I have finished the post at work, I am going to do a meal plan for the week ahead. I am going to fit in some exercise and not fret and let the weekend get me down and ruin the rest of this week.

I just need to pick myself up and start again.

Wish me luck! xx

Back on that wagon?

Again a bad week. Wwers seems to be the last thing on my mind at the moment, but if I want to be in the 10s for our wedding/honeymoon I need to sort myself out and get my head back into the right place.
I made some soup last night for lunches this week. And generally I just need to keep focus!

MUST TRY HARDER!!
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Day??? I'm not sure any more!

Possibly day 21? I have completely lost track.

I am feeling better today, not completely mended and better, but definitely better than yesterday. I had a mini breakdown last night, at least I think thats how it would have looked from anyone on the outside looking in.

The evening was going ok, I was starting to feel calmer and more relaxed, until my dearest mother called and started going on about someone's wedding that they want me to photograph. Which is lovely and I am sure that bride wants to get it all sorted. But really, the day after I was telling her how stressed I was feeling?

Anyway, I don't want to go into it too much really, I can feel the tension as I type about it, and I am really concentrating on keeping clam and relaxed, or at least a bit more level headed.

Basically yesterday culminated in me having a god almighty strop, kicking a kitchen cupboard door (which D thought I had broken, but I hadn't, I was only wearing my slippers, and my little foot wasn't strong enough to smash the wood on its own!) and then sobbing on the sofa.

D has never seen me lose my temper like that before. But I think it made min realise exactly how much I am trying to do, and how much I do need someone to help.

I think I have only ever lost it like that once before, and I was about 15, so seeing as I am now nearly 30, I shouldn't be due another one until I am about 45! :)

I still have a lot of things on my plate and to do, but I am trying not to over think things, and worry, and just get on with stuff. Its the only way things will get done if you just get it together and get on.

We ordered the groceries last night. ensuring we had plenty of quick and easy food for weekdays. I made a little 'easy dinners' list for on the fridge too, with points values and meal ideas that we can throw in the oven, or that just take a few minutes to do.

If I am going to be busy, and starting to go gym too, mon-thurs we need no effort quick food. So we stocked up on pies (wwers for me of course!) a few ready meals, filled pasta and the like. to make weekdays that bit easier.

I think I will have had a gain this week. I've just not really had my head in the right place. But I am re-focussing today.

TODAYS MENU

B - 2 crumpets, spread, tea - 3.5

L - tuna salad roll - 6.0

D - jacket potato, spread, chicken, salad, mayo - 6.5

E - first proper session of power plates! no idea what points that will earn!

16/19

Quick update

I haven't been posting, to be honest its been the last thing on my mind at the moment. what with wedding dress issues, and money issues amongst other things, putting anything on my blog has been way down on my list.

Tonight I was due to have a gym induction, but I have decided to cancel. Just so I can have a rest, both mentally and physically.

We have a few things we need to get our heads round and sort out and make plans to sort out. Thank kind of thing.

So hopefully, I'll be back on track and have less of a brain overload soon.

And when that happens I shall be back on the blog and posting regularly. at the moment however, a small time out is needed.

Day 16

I know its early. I have been up and awake for not far of an hour already. D had to leave for work earlier today and when his alarm went off, I was wide awake. Normally I just half wake up and as soon as he is up I coccoon myself in the covers and drop straight back off to sleep.

Instead this morning I was awake, so I made myself breakfast, and came bed to catch up on some of my TV programs! :)

Anyway... Weigh In last night... I lost 1.5lbs!! yes LOST 1.5lbs! :D

Not sure how that happened, i guess saving points and lots of walking did the trick.

TODAYS MENU
B - 2 crumpets, spread, strawberries, tea - 4.0
L - 0pt soup, half ham & cheese wrap, tomato - 4.0
S - Pineapple - 0.5
D - Chicken salad and Chips - 5.5
S - WWers chocolate brownie - 3.0
E - Power Plates induction! eeek! :D

Day 15

Its a beautiful day today. always puts me in a better mood! :)

Its weigh in night tonight. Not looking forward to it at all. I was going to skive and not bother going, but like a good little weight watcher I am going to go and assess the damage from the hen weekend. :(

Still not looking forward to it in the slightest though!!

Got a bit of a head ache at the moment. I think because I am getting a little dehydrated it is very warm in this office when the sun hits the windows in the afternoon. I need to get back into the habit of brining a cold drink in with me. the tap water here tastes nasty.

I shall still walk to my meeting, and I shall ask D if he will pick me up, so we can pop to the shops and get some tinned tomatoes for me to make some nice 0pt soup with.

Today's lunch was officially LUSH! although it did look like a child's packed lunch!

We had some Mediterranean wraps at home (basically herby wraps!) so I filled one with some baby spinach, finely chopped celery, ham (chopped into thin slices) and some grated cheese and a squidge of mayo.

7.5points for the whole wrap. But I chopped it in half and wrapped it in foil so it lasts me 2 days for lunches. then I had some 0pt soup, a tomato and a kids pack of fruit. having a few different things made it so much more enjoyable, and it was only 4.5pts for the lot!

TODAYS MENU

B - 2 crumpets, spread, strawberries, tea - 4.0

L - half ham and cheese wrap, home made soup, tomato - 4.0

S - kids fruit pack - 0.5

D - Jacket potato, butter, cheese, beans - 9.0

17.5/19

E - walk to meeting - 1.0 bonus point

Day 14

Have I mentioned that I came to the decision i should spend more time and effort on myself. I'll be honest, I can't remember a damn thing I have written on here at this specific moment in time.
Anyway, this afternoon I made an appointment for an induction at the gym! eeek. monday at 18.15.
D agreed (well OK it was his idea) that I really should do more for myself. So I am rejoining the gym. My plan of action is:
Mondays: Body Balance (straight after work at 18.15)
Tuesdays: Gym (weights, cardio, whatever, again straight after work)
Wednesdays: Weight Watchers meetings. walk there
Thursdays: Gym (straight after work, weights and/or cardio)
Fridays: Nothing
Saturdays: Nothing
Sundays: Gym (in the morning while Daz at footy. shower and home for a bit of a pamper session! Might use the sauna or steam room on a Sunday too!)

I am nervous, but i'll not go crazy on my program! :) so it should all be good. D has said he shall help me and do dinner for me some nights etc too which is lovely of him.
I think when I do this months grocery shop I shall stock up on quick and easy style foods! Give him a helping hand! :)

TODAYS MENU
B - 2 toast, Jam, Tea - 4.0
L - 0pt soup, 2bread & butter - 3.0
S - pineapple - 1.0
D - cheesy mushroom and pepper risotto - 4.0
S - WWers dessert, 1 chocolate - 5.0

17/19