Bad day

I am seriously unhappy tonight.

The day started out alright. Found an old stp album to listen to in the car on the way to work. Cheered up a friend with a gift of a bag with a dancing cat on it. It was alright.
But something happened. I don't really know what, I've not been feeling particularly inspired or happy the past few days. Just grumpy and sulky (and I am not even hormonal!!) All afternoon and evening I've been having intermittent cramps in my left thigh, and right now, right at this moment I wish it'd just f*** off so I can get some decent rest!!

Of course I don't deal with these things sensibly not like my laid back happy husband does. On the scale of pessimism/optimism we are pretty much at opposite ends of the spectrum.
I try and change, but its hard. Especially when you are tired and peeved off, and the thing you want to escape from you can't, because its your own effing body!

So... My hopes to turn this blog into a place to pour my inspirations and thoughts seems to have failed at the first hurdle. But you need somewhere to unleash (if that's the right word, perhaps unload is more apt) your feelings, get them out there in the world, no matter who would read it or not, or hear it or not, you just need to let it all out!!

I think it helps your brain process thoughts, makes everything seem much more manageable and realistic again!


Looks like my husband may have had an insect decide he was tasty, and its chowed down on his bottom! I'll not share any more! :) just an observation while he's snoring here beside me in bed!

I'm feeling really quite sleepy too actually. I'll just record some of hubbys snoring for evidence that he really DOES snore, and then try and settle down myself.

Goodnight blog world. Sleep tight xxx
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Early morning

This morning I was awake early. Darren always gets up earlier than me for work, and I normally go back to sleep, but this morning I was wide awake.
No amount of extra cusions to snuggle down in was making me sleepy.
It was quite nice to take a really relaxing slow morning.

Changes

I am thinking of making some changes. Well. Truth be told I am in the process of making some changes.
Big ones too!
We are de cluttering and redecorating the whole house, and in the process, making things more workable for the changes that will be happening.
I need to do more that makes me happy, I need to be inspired and I have decided to write this blog on all the things that make me happy and inspire me.
That may be types of interior design, it may be healthy enjoyable eating, or it may be something else entirely.

We'll see how things go, but I want to document these changes in my life and have something to look back at and lift my spirits on those down days we always have, especially it seems when we are striving towards a goal.

But I have my goals in sight, and I am going to give it my all to get to them!
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Lovely cup of tea

Just thought I'd share this little picture of me with my Minni Mouse mug I was given for my birthday. I love it!! :)

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I made it back to Weight Watchers last night.

After a month off, and slacking off and not going last week, I finally bit the bullet and decided to just get on with it, go, get weighed, survey the damage and take a positive step towards getting healthier, slimmer and happier.

So, I arrived (10 min early as it happens!) queued up and got weighed. Since my last WI on June 2nd, I have put on 5lbs.

So a month off, a wedding, a honeymoon (a week of which was all inclusive) and a birthday where I was spoilt rotten all included and ONLY 5lbs on!! :DDDDD

I am super happy with that. Back on track today and feeling fab about being healthier again! :)

Feeling fab about a lot of things actually. feeling happier with my job, not completely but I can see a future for me here with a few changes, and think I might be able to make it work for me eventually going part time/working from home. Which is the eventual goal of course for when we (hopefully) start a family.

That with my decision to get into my photography a bit more again, and develop that into selling prints, paintings, drawings etc online, plus a possible stint in mystery shopping or brochure drops, perhaps not exciting, but if it means I can look after my children at home, get a wee doggy and keep some variety so I do not get bored, I am all for it.

We also have a makeover plan in place for the house. all in all things are looking good and are on the up. Yay! :)

The month of decadence is almost over!

I had a wonderful Birthday weekend. I got incredibly spoilt by my lovely husband, but we have both decided us driving in London is never ever going to happen again!

Also, wearing heels is incredibly treacherous, especially on the cobbled streets of covent garden.

When we finally made it through London and found the hotel, we checked in, moved the car to some free parking round the back (hoorah!) and went to our room. Which was actually 2 rooms, made into one... HUGE. Huge by London standards anyway. (by London standards that we can afford)

We had 2 bathrooms, 2 tvs, one in the bedroom area, one in the living area. a fancy coffee machine, and some chocolate flap jacks. lovely.

We had to rush around a bit to get ready as traffic/roadworks had held us up a bit. We grabbed a taxi to the Cambridge theatre in Covent Garden. D had booked us tickets in the stalls to see Chicago. Having never been to a show in London the theatre was much smaller tan I expected but the show was great, and even D ('I hate musicals') enjoyed it,though I have a feeling it may have been more to do with the lack of clothing worn by the girls in the show! haha.

After getting out of the show, again it was a rush around for us to grab a taxi and make it to the Ritz for dinner reservations (I said I was spoilt)

When we arrived at the Ritz, we bumped into my boss who had been having lunch their and had a room for the evening! He pointed us in the right direction, and off we trotted for Dinner. (He then very kindly sent a couple of glasses of champagne to our table for us!!)

We both had pigeon to start, which was beautiful, and delicious. D had Chicken, and I had Lamb for my main. I cannot speak for the chicken, but the Lamb was absolutely wonderful. Then to finish, I had Baked strawberry cheese cake, which was nice but nothing to shout about. and D had a sour cherry soufflé. followed by some petite fours.

I see that I am now rambling, so I shall cut it short!

After our meal we went to get the tube back, but Jubeliee line was shut, so we grabbed a taxi. popped to the Tate Modern to have a look around (D, 'I just dont get art!!') went back to the hotel, and had a can of cola and pringles from the mini bar.

Sunday, we had breakfast, checked out, and drove to Knightsbridge to have a day at a spa. (as approaching where the spa was D said ' wow, that place has loads of flags outside, it must be well posh'. Me - 'Its Harrods!')

Finally we found somewhere to park, and had out lovers pamper day at the Aquilla Spa. Both having a massage, facial and manicure. We then had lunch at the Rembrandt Hotel next door. went back to the spa and had a swim and jacuzzi.

Then left to tackle the terrible traffic in London, and listen to the terrible footy on the radio.

When we got home we popped to our local harvester with good friends L & E and my parents.

all in all, a wonderful birthday weekend! :D

Hello. My name is Julia, and I am a foodaholic

I wish I had some self control and didn't like food as much as I do!! Or, I wish I could love food, but not all food, and know when to stop. I dont NEED to eat everything in sight, all the food in the world is not going to disappear overnight. so I have come to the realisation that I am possibly a foodaholic. Not a fully fledged can't stop eating ever I'll soon need a crane and 6 burly blokes to get me out of the house foodaholic. but a foodaholic none the less. I also wish that I liked mornings, and getting up to exercise was easy for me, because its not. I much prefer staying in bed and letting the sunlight wash through the curtains, windows open, listening to the birds chatter away, and the bees buzzing by.

and one other thing that weird-ing me out at the moment... I am not in the slightest, one tiny little bit bothered about turning 30 on Sunday!! Normally I hate birthdays, but I am really not bothered! hmmm, perhaps I am gradually getting to know myself better and be happier with my life. Or perhaps I am just resigned to the fact that no matter how much pouting, feet stamping and sulking I do, time is NOT going to stop, and I will be turning 30 on Sunday, so I might as well just suck it up, get on with it and bloody well enjoy myself.

Either way, it makes a pleasant change to the last 10 years of dreading my birthday! :)

(plus, I think I look pretty darn good for a 30 year old!)

(and oh yes. I am back blogging! woo hoo!)

Much Love. x